Please find me. I hope you find me.

It’s the flashbacks, they always come rushing back. The eyes that glistened. The smile that was intoxicating. The exuberant joy that consumed anyone who needed it. But where were you when I needed you? You left without a goodbye. Without trying to fight to stay in my life. You gave up. You gave up. Trying everything to get your attention because like I said yelling from the rooftops, I needed you. Lost and forgotten didn’t sum up how I felt. I know I may have not been the easiest to handle. I just wanted it all. Why couldn’t I have it all? The days seemed to roll up all into one and the face I saw in the mirror was blank. Blank and dark like the night. The mornings always suited me better. The sun rises and all the darkness subsides for a while. Thoughts diminish and the morning air gives off hope. Hope for a better tomorrow. Even in the brightest light I still search for a time where you were in it. How do I keep going? How do I take away the pain? Please find me. I hope you find me.

My love, I tried. I begged and pleaded yelling from the rooftops to understand me. To take my light and carefully fuel the fire that ignites me. You broke down my walls and built them back up with only you on the inside. When I was there, you took me for granted and pushed me aside, scared of what would happen if I got too close. How could you not see I only wanted the best for you? I wanted you to feel open to all of the possibilities I see in you. I believed in you. Hear me. I believed in you. Yes, you choose to say goodbye and I left feeling unwanted. Don’t you see that as much as you needed me, I needed you. We are the fire and ice within each other. Giving us the ability to see the dark and light all in one. We are one. If you give up on me, I give up on you. It’s time my darling. It’s time to take back your life. It’s okay to let the dark in because even in the dark the moon still will shine. Let me be clear, I never left, I’ve been in you this entire time waiting for your glow up. It’s time to start fucking glowing.